Human life never develops of the events consistently developing in the form of a ready plot logically built, without
contradictions, without paradoxical discrepancies of one episode to another, one act to the subsequent, one opinion -
replacing it. The life edited is not a life. You do not trust for some reason to logically consecutive texts. And that confusion
which sometimes pours out on reading with any mad, fantasmagoricheski the constructed pages, inadmissible from the point
of view of the editor conceiving by linear categories, this confusion appears incommensurably realistichnee and is more
truthful than competently built, licked, brushed lines.
Though, of course, such text looks slovenly, nonprofessional, not "from a head" it has come. Something has joined bolshee,
than mind, the text writing has rushed itself as if someone from outside dictated it. I did not know that will be further, I and
now do not know, than all described here has come to an end. Or will come to an end.
Or will not come to an end.
5. Like all around there would be real, everything to what eyes have got used: the same lattice, the same heavy door, the
same poor cot in the chamber. But it is not clear, these people whence undertook: they were in soft wide-brimmed hats with
feathers, on belts at them swords hung, bulging edges of freely hanging raincoats-capes. Like - not a dream. Dreams - not
such. In the most different, in the most unexpected forms Transpersonification was carried out. I will not be surprised, if next
time it will appear in Ancient Rome in shape of the gladiator or on building of pyramids in a role of the slave or gastarbajtera.
Then I will become a plant, an animal, metal, gas, a star, a planet, concept. It is elementary, if I became Them - higher step.
Of come I have learnt one at once - such memoirs will not confuse, will not wipe from memory. It was sharply allocated
among the others. On the slightest gesture rushed to execute its commands the others. I have well remembered it. He
headed a three of judges when accusation in connection with the Devil that I began to use for the first time practice of
treatment such ordinary and not causing today questions as pricks in medical practice has been brought to me.
Yes, today each child, yet without having started to speak, already well knows that such a prick. But several centuries ago
this, harmless enough for today, procedure has caused sharp opposition from outside churches. From the date of the
invention of pricks before their wide introduction in medical practice has passed more than fifty years. I was from the first
doctors who did pricks. And I sat for it in a prison cell.